Boys Suck... no really... they do...

Now this isn't just the normal... AHHH I hate boys!!! post because in reality I like boys.. a lot... they definitely have given me a reason to smile on countless occasions, they are usually super easy to talk to and they normally would have lots less drama than girls. My question in this blog is: How did the world suddenly turn upside down on this topic?

I know I talk about friends a lot on this blog and today I can honestly say a have a lot of really amazing friends - at college I have my girls who support me in everything and at home I have some awesome friends - even if normally they are really far away. I also have an amazing best friend who lives in the cities now and she is seriously the one who I talk through everything with and we make awesome life plans together. The thing is... boys are difficult. While the normal problem would be boys coming in between friendships - that's really not at all what's happening and that hasn't happened to me in a very long time (Thank God). I am starting to realize that staying in touch with guy friends - or just guys in general, are infinitely harder to keep in touch with. You have to balance on that fine line of being in touch enough so you don't go crazy and not so much that you annoy the crap out of them.. And not only that - the median of the two had better be good with both parties.

I'm just really confused about the whole thing and just found out that my best friend who I really haven't talked to much in the two months we've been in school is coming home today and I didn't even know it. (I am home also btw) I just have no clue how I am supposed to react to that! It's not that I have personally changed all that much since the summer but I made a promise to myself this year - I wouldn't be the one to always call and always start the conversation but CLEARLY that plan didn't work out the way I wanted it to...

I just don't want to be the one who always caves. In reality I didn't even plan on calling him today - it just... circumstances that I was in earlier made me seriosuly miss him for some obvious reasons that only he would understand and I had just planned to leave him a message. I don't think I was prepared to hear his voice and the reaction it would have on me. Seriously I felt like I got punched in the stomach...

Okay so this post isn't helping me any and I'm sure you don't want to read anymore so more later

Oh and I haven't talked to the other boy in my life since monday so that probs isn't helping the whole boys suck thing either...


Much Love and Hugs,
Chrissy

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