Anxiety

I haven't had this bad if an anxiety attack in a long time and can hardly hit the keys but I want to get this out. One of my best friends lied to me. sure maybe it was by omission but you know what - that fucking hurts.
I can't even begin to state...

So I called the other bff and got out my aggression. I'll talk with him tomorrow... I guess... If he actually picks up the damn phone for once.

I just want to say how greatful I am to my roommate who stayed up WAY past her bedtime keeping my mind off the other friend. she is amazing and can always make me laugh.

My anxiety attack is going down so I'm gonna take an advil and try to sleep.

Until tomorrow,
Chrissy

Days until London: 111
Doctor Who Episode: season 3 episode 7 - "42"
Shots of Espresso: 6


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Life Unexpect on the CW

You can rest easy tonight
Everything is gonna be alright, I promise
Go to sleep and dream of me tonight
Everything may not be perfect, but at least we tried
~Chase Coy "Lullaby"

So I wasn't going to write this blog post but I guess it just needs to come out:

Tonight I watched Life Unexpected on the CW. If you don't know the premise it is about a girl who was put up for adoption as a baby and went through the foster system and at age 15 goes looking for her birth parents.

Now this may not seem like a great premise for a whole tv show (maybe a movie though) - and I had my doubts but honestly I can see a really good story developing.

But most importantly Life Unexpected made me so grateful but my good experience through the adoption process. I never had to go through foster care and get passed between families. I have had my family since I was just a few days old and for that I thank God. Sure there are times that I can't stand my family and there are definitely times that I wonder about my birth parents but I wouldn't' change me life if I had the chance. I am the person I am today because of my experiences and for that i am eternally grateful.

I'll try to write more tomorrow between classes but for now I am off to bed.

Much Love and Hugs,
Chrissy

Days Until London: 112
Episode of Doctor Who: Season 3 Episode 7 "42"
Shots of Espresso This Year: 6

Stupid Meddling Boys

Overall it's been a busy week but seriously today was just frustrating. My socio class was pretty boring and after a frustrating math class all I wanted to do was get back to my room. I walked out of class and ran into one of my friends from my block last semester (who i also happened to like for a good portion of the semester) but it was going to be nice to just catch up. And up walks my other REALLY obnoxious friend who decided it would be brilliant to act like a six year old and do the whole ___ and Christine sitting in a tree... Yeah... that was fun and awkward. It would have been fine if he had left but then he proceeded to walk right between us and create an entirely new conversation about himself. I was only really pissed cause I hadn't gotten a chance to talk to my friend all semester and the one chance I had was totally blown... so basically I am super pissed.

This was the point in the blog where I decided it would be a better plan to just walk away. So I called my parents and talked to them some more about planning my trip to Paris with my friend Jenna. My roomie got back and we decorated for valentines day (I know it's really early but we have super cute new window clings we just bought at target and felt the need to begin to use). I watched an episode of Glee until Jenna got back.

We basically decided we needed to destress after the first week of school so we headed out to Granite City for some burgers and then off to Coldstone for ridiculously awesome ice cream :). The night ended with us watching both Tarzan and Sleeping Beauty. And a few episodes of Say Yes to the Dress (our guilty pleasure).

So a day that could have been totally ruined was saved by my awesome friend whom I love! Now Sarah is in bed so I should probably head up there. She is leaving for the cities tomorrow morning early so hopefully I'll be able to fall back asleep. Also I filmed a whole video on Wednesday but have yet to post it to youtube. Need to do that tomorrow as well.

Much Love and Hugs,
Chrissy

Days Until London: 115
Episode of Doctor Who: Season 3 Episode 6 "The Lazaruth Experiment"
Shots of Espresso This Year: 4

New Semester Here I Come!

All this beauty;
You might have to close your eyes
And slowly open wide
All this beauty;
We traveled all night
We drank the ocean dry
And watched the sun rise...
~The Weepies - "All This Beauty"

So yes I know that I had all these grand plans of blogging and vlogging over break and yes I am very aware that neither really happened other than my project for awesome video. But I can honestly say that the break from technology was actually a really good idea and left my all the more energized to devote more time to this blog in the new year!

FIrst off the new semester has just started. At this point I have had all my new classes and I can honestly say I like 3 out of the 4. I was pleasently suprised by my intro to sociology class today. While it seems like an interesting class, the professor seems great too! She is a really funny little English lady :D. I also am a big fan of my schedule on these days cause I have a nine forty class then a two hour break and then a TERRIBLE math class but at least it's the last class of the day. I am gonna just pretend that class doesn't exist. Seriously when a math prof walks into a room full of elementary education majors and goes on a rant about how rude the things elem ed majors are... that pisses me off. Oh well. My even day classes are MUCH more my speed. I am taking one of my fav profs from last semester again and he is amazing for my methods class about teaching writing and reading. My comm class has potential but we will see.

So in other news... break was pretty good. I spent a lot of time with the fam just relaxing which was really what I needed. I also went to Chicago which was super fun. New Years wasn't super eventful but I went to the Wild game with Michael and then we went back and he killed me a couple dozen times on Call of Duty 2. Also go to see Jenna and Brad that night which was sooo much fun! I can't believe how much I missed that girl!

I am now back at college. I really missed my friends here and having someone just around the corner to talk to. I love my fam but college is amazing.

OH also I read a great book over break called the Genius Instruction Manuel. It was editted by John Green so I knew it would be hilarious but it was even better than I thought. I brought it on my trip to Chicago and actually managed to read 2/3rds of it on the plane ride there. I love random facts and this is what the book is all about. I completely recommend it for anyone who loves random interesting tidbits or wishes they new a little more about everything!

So now I am going to finish my hot chocolate and prepare myself for a statistics filled math class... boooo. I will write again soon - probs on friday - same time same place ;).

Much Love and Hugs,
Chrissy

Days Until London: 118
Episode of Doctor Who: Season 3 Episode 5 "Daleek Evolution"
Shots of Espresso This Year: 4

P.S. I am going to try to keep track of shots of espresso and the number of books I read this year. At the moment I am reading A Sweet and Far Thing but it is 800 pages so that is why I don't have that category up yet. Also I will be changing my blog layout VERY soon so look out for that!