Tears on her Birthday

In November of 2008 my good friend Jenna Lynn died. But today - Saturday June 6, 2009 me and a group of my friends celebrated her birthday (a day late but we know she wouldn't have minded). Ten of us met at her house - friends of old from high school and middle school. I grew up with these girls and it was wonderful and heartbreaking to be there. Just sitting in her living room I felt as if Jenna would come bounding down the stairs or start dancing to the Rascal Flatts that we had playing in the background. We didn't focus at all on the bad times today but on the amazing memories we had made of the last few years. All the crazy slumber parties we had there and funny inside jokes and random times at theatre - that would never had happened if Jenna hadn't been in our lives.

She is such an amazing girl and I can't imagine my life without her. Her mom is SO strong and for that I am so happy. I love her family, they have always been amazingly supportive and so when they asked us to join her Relay for Life team - there was no way I was going to say no. I have lost 2 important people in my life to cancer and any organization working to find a cure definitely deserves my time and money.

I know this post isn't like my normal ones but today is really about Jenna and I feel that this blog is here to put my feelings down and this is definitely what i am feeling today.

I held it all together until getting in my car to drive home. And I really don't know where I thought I was going to drive - but I just did and after all the wonderful nerdy talk of the group of us that grew up together - I just needed to get all that emotion out. So blasting some Linkin Park - yeah i know that that is a really bizarre choice, I just drove - for about 45 min until I finally returned home to write this.

Now I am off to church but becuase I am doing Relay for Life - I am sure that more of her story will come out in these blogs.

Much Love and Hugs,
Chrissy



"When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest"
~Leave Out All the Rest - Linkin Park